The Day The Friendship Died.....

I have always been honest with myself, the people I meet, and get close with. I always try to be as fourth coming as I can, as loving as I can, as supportive as I can.

I cannot imagine hurting someone close to me, yes, it has happend, and I have owned up to it. I have torn myself up inside thinking of how "I" effects the people in my life.

I lost the best friend I ever had yesterday. After a 25 year friendship it is now over. We have had our lumps before....but somehow we got through them.

Our friendship wasn't perfect. We had to learn to become "long distance" friends, sending audio tapes back and fourth, and updating each other on our latest news.

The hard part was seeing each other again, and noticing the changes, the growing up we had done, and literally becoming friends all over again.

I thought we just got into a good swing. When she came to visit she stayed in a hotel. That way we wouldn't get on each others nerves by being together 24/7.

I thought it worked well. The last time I saw her, was a nice trip, a learning experience, an end. I thought we got along really well, she smoked my cigarettes, we tried to help a mutual friend together....we talked.

I did things I would ONLY do for a good friend. I went to strangers homes to locate a guy, I put up with someone I let go of years ago. I did this for her. My best friend.

I never "faked" who I was. My personality is what it is. The only thing about me that I held back was my happiness. I feel to laid back. I was never completely happy.

I am sorry my friend if I hurt you. I NEVER lied to you. I always told you who I was, and now that I am taking the steps to bring that person out, I wish you were here for the ride. I wish you were here to really know me. I am sorry you feel it is NOT worth your while.

I am sorry you feel you must explain or label me upon introductions. I am sorry I wasn't the kind of friend I should have been, a friend that you would keep for life.

I never lost a friend that I loved.
I never confided so much in one person before.
I am completely Devastated that your gone.
I've cried, I will cry more, and I will also pray that whatever hurt I caused you will soon leave you for happiness in its place.

Your Former Best Friend.

Save Me From MYSELF!!

My name is Barbara Del Piano and I am addicted to Facebook.
The first step in my recovery is admitting I have a problem.
I downloaded an application called "YoVille", and I cannot seem to leave it.
This reminds me of "The Stepford wives", or "Pleasantville".
My life in YoVille is a sweet life.
I have an "Avatar" (a little version of "me") that I named "Bobbie"....




Okay, I am so addicted I have 2 Avatars! One is Bobbie and one is the male version of me that I named "Angelo". (I told ya I had it bad!)

While in YoVille, you collect your paychecks at the Widget Factory every 6 hours. You get your own apartment, and can upgrade to a house! You can purchase new clothes, furniture,rugs,food,drink, even pets! (I have 2 Yorkies: Daphane and Scooter!)

I bought a gazebo for my yard, a pool table for my game room, and I frequently have Yard Sales, and trade with others!

I GOT IT BAD I TELL YA!!

On the other hand, I am now officially writing for a magazine called "Kritter Kronickles". As a matter of fact, they asked me to write the feature story for their May issue. My bearded dragon Angel Lynn will grace the front cover, and back inside cover! I am blessed, honored and THRILLED!

Penny..... Penny is taking one day at a time, she still has trouble swallowing, and choking. I am not happy with this at all. Penny goes back to see her surgeon on April 20th, 2009. So we will see what he has to say.

I am taking Penny for a neck/back xray on Monday about 2 hours BEFORE her surgeon appointment, that way they can get a status on how she is doing.

I cannot convey how disappointed I am with her side of the family. No get well cards. NOTHING. Not to mention a blatent disregard and lack of respect for her as a family member.

I THANK GOD for Suzanne, and my parents & sister & neice, Janice and Marie, Frankie and even our Avon customers who have shown an abundance of care, love and concern to Penny.

I cannot image my life without my family.
I cannot imagine growing up with a brother and not being invited to his wedding.
I cannot imagine such disregard for a human being no less family.

Since the death of Penny's father, things have gotten TERRIBLE.
Penny's so called Step Mother has been deaf on hearing ANYTHING Penny says, disregarding EVERYTHING. I never met anyone who proclaims to be "of God" and then totally shuts out a family member. I am saddend. My heart hurts for Penny, and yet I am so honored with the AWESOME people in our lives that are TRULY of God.



**Remember** "God Loves ALL of his children, embraces ALL of his children, an ONLY God can Judge what is a sin, not the MEN who wrote the Bible". B.A. Del Piano 2009

P.S. People tend to forget that MEN wrote the Bible NOT GOD, and it is THEIR account of what happend, to the best that THEY COULD REMEMBER!