The Day The Friendship Died.....

I have always been honest with myself, the people I meet, and get close with. I always try to be as fourth coming as I can, as loving as I can, as supportive as I can.

I cannot imagine hurting someone close to me, yes, it has happend, and I have owned up to it. I have torn myself up inside thinking of how "I" effects the people in my life.

I lost the best friend I ever had yesterday. After a 25 year friendship it is now over. We have had our lumps before....but somehow we got through them.

Our friendship wasn't perfect. We had to learn to become "long distance" friends, sending audio tapes back and fourth, and updating each other on our latest news.

The hard part was seeing each other again, and noticing the changes, the growing up we had done, and literally becoming friends all over again.

I thought we just got into a good swing. When she came to visit she stayed in a hotel. That way we wouldn't get on each others nerves by being together 24/7.

I thought it worked well. The last time I saw her, was a nice trip, a learning experience, an end. I thought we got along really well, she smoked my cigarettes, we tried to help a mutual friend together....we talked.

I did things I would ONLY do for a good friend. I went to strangers homes to locate a guy, I put up with someone I let go of years ago. I did this for her. My best friend.

I never "faked" who I was. My personality is what it is. The only thing about me that I held back was my happiness. I feel to laid back. I was never completely happy.

I am sorry my friend if I hurt you. I NEVER lied to you. I always told you who I was, and now that I am taking the steps to bring that person out, I wish you were here for the ride. I wish you were here to really know me. I am sorry you feel it is NOT worth your while.

I am sorry you feel you must explain or label me upon introductions. I am sorry I wasn't the kind of friend I should have been, a friend that you would keep for life.

I never lost a friend that I loved.
I never confided so much in one person before.
I am completely Devastated that your gone.
I've cried, I will cry more, and I will also pray that whatever hurt I caused you will soon leave you for happiness in its place.

Your Former Best Friend.

Save Me From MYSELF!!

My name is Barbara Del Piano and I am addicted to Facebook.
The first step in my recovery is admitting I have a problem.
I downloaded an application called "YoVille", and I cannot seem to leave it.
This reminds me of "The Stepford wives", or "Pleasantville".
My life in YoVille is a sweet life.
I have an "Avatar" (a little version of "me") that I named "Bobbie"....




Okay, I am so addicted I have 2 Avatars! One is Bobbie and one is the male version of me that I named "Angelo". (I told ya I had it bad!)

While in YoVille, you collect your paychecks at the Widget Factory every 6 hours. You get your own apartment, and can upgrade to a house! You can purchase new clothes, furniture,rugs,food,drink, even pets! (I have 2 Yorkies: Daphane and Scooter!)

I bought a gazebo for my yard, a pool table for my game room, and I frequently have Yard Sales, and trade with others!

I GOT IT BAD I TELL YA!!

On the other hand, I am now officially writing for a magazine called "Kritter Kronickles". As a matter of fact, they asked me to write the feature story for their May issue. My bearded dragon Angel Lynn will grace the front cover, and back inside cover! I am blessed, honored and THRILLED!

Penny..... Penny is taking one day at a time, she still has trouble swallowing, and choking. I am not happy with this at all. Penny goes back to see her surgeon on April 20th, 2009. So we will see what he has to say.

I am taking Penny for a neck/back xray on Monday about 2 hours BEFORE her surgeon appointment, that way they can get a status on how she is doing.

I cannot convey how disappointed I am with her side of the family. No get well cards. NOTHING. Not to mention a blatent disregard and lack of respect for her as a family member.

I THANK GOD for Suzanne, and my parents & sister & neice, Janice and Marie, Frankie and even our Avon customers who have shown an abundance of care, love and concern to Penny.

I cannot image my life without my family.
I cannot imagine growing up with a brother and not being invited to his wedding.
I cannot imagine such disregard for a human being no less family.

Since the death of Penny's father, things have gotten TERRIBLE.
Penny's so called Step Mother has been deaf on hearing ANYTHING Penny says, disregarding EVERYTHING. I never met anyone who proclaims to be "of God" and then totally shuts out a family member. I am saddend. My heart hurts for Penny, and yet I am so honored with the AWESOME people in our lives that are TRULY of God.



**Remember** "God Loves ALL of his children, embraces ALL of his children, an ONLY God can Judge what is a sin, not the MEN who wrote the Bible". B.A. Del Piano 2009

P.S. People tend to forget that MEN wrote the Bible NOT GOD, and it is THEIR account of what happend, to the best that THEY COULD REMEMBER!

I See You

Yup....It's official. I just got my glasses.

I need to wear these all the time.

HAPPY 40's!

I never wore glasses before, but now....BAM!

Penny's Birthday was on the 19th of March.

Despite the neck brace and bone fuser that we must wear,

we had a nice time. I got Penny a beautiful Thomas Kinkade Mirror that she had seen a few months back.

The dogs, cats, and bearded dragons got their mommy a $50.00 gift certificate to the local Christian store! Yeah!! So now, Penny can shop and have fun!

The highlight of the day was when Penny her mom and I went to dinner at The Olive Garden. We had such a nice relaxing time. The food was AWESOME!!

**Remember** "Love is unconditional" B.A. Del Piano 2009

My Product Reviews....Penny and Rocky....

Barb's Product Reviews:

There seems to be a new kick, and a GREAT combo! Lavender and chamomile. I love the two scents! Now here is something else I LOVE. Xtra Laundry Detergent: Lavender and Vanilla scented. No, I am not doing a commercial! I always used Xtra, but now that they came out with the Lavender and Vanilla combo, it's all I will use. (P.S. IT'S CHEAP!!) Your clothes will smell AWESOME!!

Not so GRATE!

So you think sand paper is bad? I am not to sure who invented this next product, BUTT I am sure it only comes in handy if used as a torture devise!

You have heard of the Great Wall Of China....well, look out, here is the competition! The GRATE Roll Of Pain. Guaranteed to get rid of bottom blemishes and unwanted hemorrhoids....by way of torture!

Now some news on the home front....

Rocky went to see the vet for a check up on Thursday, and he is looking GREAT! The wire in his jaw held the skin and muscle in place! Rocks still needs to wear his E-Collar, and he goes back to the vet next Friday.

Our AWESOME Neighbors gave Penny and Rocky a care package to "Get Well". Penny got chocolate covered pretzels (yummerz!) and Rocky got cool toys!

Penny has been getting better with each day.....

However she is still battling swallowing correctly.We had a scare this morning when I got up, I checked on her, and she had foam coming from her mouth. This scared the hell out of me.

Penny called the surgeon and they recommended 48 hours of soft foods, like jello, pudding,ice cream....they told us that the esophogus, and voice box were moved aside during her almost 3 hour operation. Those chords could be very swollen still, thus the hard time.

We go to see the surgeon next Tuesday.

Please pray for Penny. This has been so hard. The swallowing problem is scary.

Thanks,

Barb

Penny Update Part Two

Ok....It is 2:51 am Sunday Night/Monday Morning Now....

I got to bring Penny home on Saturday morning.

I drove her Mom home first

( I ran through a stop sign, missed a turn, and stopped at a green light....)

NEVER DRIVE WHEN YOU ARE OVER TIRED!!

When Penny got home, she LOVED our new room!

I spent ALL of Friday night/Saturday Morning converting our guest room into our bedroom. (Hence the lack of sleep).

I got Penny settled in, and then I fell asleep. I slept....and I slept....

and I slept..... I woke up a whole 24 hours later!

The dogs didn't eat, the bearded dragons didn't eat, and the 2 cats didn't eat Saturday....and Penny tried eating grapes, but choked, so she tried peanuts for dinner on Saturday.

When I got up, I made eggs in a frame for Penny and I for breakfast.

I took care of all the animals. I gave Rocky his meds....

I went to Rite Aide and got Penny all of her meds.

I do have to say that since Penny has been home,

Rocky hasn't left Penny's side.

I have been at Penny's beck and call, and I always will be.

Tonight I changed the dressing on her surgery site, and cleaned it.

Penny is having trouble swallowing at times, and must take it real slow.

I am chopping food for her or cutting up her food.

(in surgery they had to literally set aside her vocal chords to get to the discs)

The pain is there....and it has been HELL to sleep in bed with that aspen collar.

I set up the recliner for her in the room, and that seems to help.

Penny has 6 to 8 weeks in this hard collar.

We go to the surgeon in 10 days to see how she is doing.

I have to help Rocky eat, clean out the inside of his collar and give him his meds.

I have to help Penny eat, wash out the inside of her collar,and give her, her meds.

WHAT A WAY TO BOND!!

PENNY UPDATE

Okay....I am sitting in the hospital waiting room.

Penny just went in for surgery at about 2:30 pm.

Momma Suzanne and I just got out of the cafeteria (we were starving!)

The surgery we were told will last about 75 minutes if all goes as expected.

So far, so good.

I, on the other hand, have to split and pick up our cat Rocky

from the animal hospital.

They close at 6pm so, I am tight.

I wanted to be here when Penny got out of surgery,

but I have to bail Rocks out of his hospital cage, go home and settle him in, feed the dogs, let them out, and feed the beardies.

I figure after the surgery Penny will be in recovery for an hour. Momma Suzanne will be here for her when I leave, so she won't be alone at any time.

MORE LATER....

Penny's Mom and I are in the waiting room at this time 6:54 pm.
I had to leave here at 5 pm to pick up our cat "Rocky" from the vet.
I picked up Rocky, went home, fed the dogs, fed the Bearded Dragons, let the dogs out....
I called my Mom & Dad & then Momma Suzanne called me from the Hospital and told me that Penny's Doctor talked to her on the waiting room phone.
Penny got out of surgery at around 6 pm....She is now in recovery.
The operation went as expected (a "bit" longer than 75 minutes!)
They should be calling us soon to go and see her in her room.
It is now 6:58 pm and the hour in recovery is almost up.
The waiting room computer access closes at 8pm.
So I will update this WITH PHOTO'S when I get home tonight.
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I made it back to the hospital BEFORE Penny got to her room!

Momma Suzanne called me when I was home getting Rocky settled, and the girls and boys fed.... The Doctor told her that Penny would be in redcovery for about an hour or so....

So I had time to boogie back to the hospital waiting room with Penny's mom.

It was like I had never left.

I'm HOME it is 12:24 am now.

I left the hospital around 10 pm, Penny was sleeping.

She had been awake, and had some water and apple juice.

The pain was really bad, so they gave her some drugs.

I kissed her good night, and left.

Momma Suzanne is staying for the night.

I said I would return at 8am.

After I left the hospital, I went to the store and picked up groceries for the upcoming week. I plan on making Penny soups, and nice things.

Penny has to stay in the hard collar for at least 6 to 8 weeks, and then physical therapy for about 4-6 weeks.

I am doing laundry now....

Penny's favorite soft sheets!

More tomorrow.

God Bless,

Barb

When The Cup Overflows....

I am learning that if my cup overflows I should just get another cup to catch the excess. I shouldn't mop up the bountiful "mess" that awaits me, because as much as I mop it up, the water will still keep coming. The "excess" needs a place to go. It must be dealt with, not mopped into the corners where the residue lingers.

At 2 I had a Baby Bottle (Protected)
At 20 I had A Sippy Cup.(Still Protected)
At 38 I had A Milkshake. (with a hole in the lid for the straw - 94% Protected.)
At 41 I had a Dribble Glass. (You never knew if you were protected or not.)

What awaits me either takes me back or moves me forward. Either way, it is still up to me to get that other cup.

After much consideration I am ready with that other cup. The cup that will catch the water when it overflows, seeps out, or otherwise cracks the glass.

I am ready to fill that other cup and then drink the excess and have become a apart of me, and become that which ultimately makes me grow.

**Remember** "A Cup can overflow in several ways. Accept your bountiful bath with your face up toward the sun, or get another cup to catch the fierce wave that tries to spill apon you. Either way accept it, and move on" B.A. Del Piano 2009

Sorry Maaaa.....

I meant to post last night, and got so engrossed in a movie

that by the time it was over it was to late.

I want to show you the awesome dinner we had last night.

We had Ravioli and a nice shredded salad.

I was a SHREDDING FOOL!

I shredded the celery,

I shredded the tomato's,

I shredded the cucumbers,

I shredded the lettuce,

I got so excited I almost shred myself!

Yummy good food!

**Remember** "Ravioli represents the philosophy of love. The more you put into it, the more you get out of it " B.A. Del Piano 2009

SAY WHAT?

So.... I decided I wanted some ca$h, so I start listing items on Craig's List.

In the plethera of items I list, is a HUGE White Monkey.

I had purchased the monkey on Long Island at a yard sale for $3.00.

I NEVER give a price for ANY item I sell on Craig's.Instead I ask people to send me their "Best Offers".This gets me more ca$h for each item. (Selling Tip: More often than not people OVER PAY if asked to give a best offer)

Well, a woman wrote back and said how about $20.00. I want this for my disabled son. So I wrote back and told her no problem, but $10.00 would be just fine.

Today, the woman and her husband, and 1 kid come to the door. We did our exchange of $10.00 for the monkey....She then proceeded to take out a polaroid photo of her disabled son who has CP.

The woman says "I just wanted you to know where this monkey is going, I am not trying to get this for less money, I'm not asking for a deal".....So I interrupt her, and say "oh, no you ain't gettin' no deal". Then everything went silent and awkward....I sware the whole family looked at me, turned and just left!

Did you ever listen to what you just said....shake your head, and say "I can't believe I just said that". Well, I had that wonderful moment today!



**Remember** "Eating your words isn't as tasty as a Grand Slam from Denny's" B.A. Del Piano 2009

Dear Dad....

Hey Everyone.....

Please excuse me for uno-momento

while I send a tiny message to me Fodda....

Dear Dad,

I just wanted you to know, I listen to you. (for the most part!). Today we had a delivery. Penny ordered a VAST ARRAY of flavored coffees....and YES DAD we even got you what you requested. IRISH CREAM!(we also got Mudslide,and more French Vanilla) So Ya'll come back now ya hea'!

On another note:

Did you know that every Wednesday is "Family Day" at the Salvation Army? The new tradition here is The Salvation Army on Wednesday's.

You see on every other day during the week, The Salvation Army picks ONE color price tag and takes 50% off that color tagged item....BUT on Wednesday's they have 3 colors that they take 50% off!

I get $10.00 every Wednesday to go run a muck with at the Salvation Army. This passed Wednesday I got a nice bathrobe (with a Zebra on it.), a pair of nic e blue sweats, 5 baby blankies for the bearded dragons, a cool looking marmoset monkey plush and a shirt! The total was $9.30!! Hey I came in under!


**Remember** "Life is a variety of experiences, visions, and oppinions. For this we should be thankful, and have a vast variety of flavored coffees for our Dad" B.A. Del Piano 2009

I've Fallen and I can't get up

I had a second moment where I was driven to help in a situation. One was my Mom's dog Fritzy when he stopped breathing last week. Then came my neighbor today. We had our living room blind open, and I had to mail a letter. I walked toward the front door, and noticed out the window, feet sticking out from infront of a minivan, and a cane strewn near the road.

I yelled across the street "Do you need help?" and there was no reponse. I then ran across the street and to my fear a woman lay on the ground, pocket book contents all over the snow, grass and dirt. I then leaned at her side and lifed her head.... she came to. I told her I was her neighbor, and that I would help her.

The woman was in pain, and I took things real slow. I picked up the contents of her purse, and put it back where it belonged, and I managed to get her to her feet, and balancing with her cane, and my body.

She is disabled I come to find out, and her legs gave out.

I managed to get her into her apartment, sitting and settled.
She called her boyfriend, I waited until he showed up.
I left her my number, and told her if she needed anything to call.

Funny, I got an answer to a question. If you saw someone on the street that needed your help....would you help, or stay out of it?

I would help.


**Remember** "Don't think....Just DO" - B.A. Del Piano 2009

Yummy Love Traveled Over

For the first time in my life. I made chicken pot pie! They came out GREAT to boot! Penny was sweet to guide me through how to do it. We enjoyed the 1st pie last night, and now we have 1 to spare for another night! Tonight I made 2 small steaks with Zuchinni and Onions in my secret beef gravy with beef rice a roni! Aside from the bearded dragons eyeing me as I sliced the Zuchinni (they love Zuchinni!) all was delicious!

Tomorrow I take Penny to our Primary Care Doctor, and then on Wednesday I take my Mother-In-Law to my dentist.

Thank God the sun melted away A LOT of the snow, and I got to knock off the 2 huge icicles that were hanging on with dear life to my house!

THANK YOU MOM AND DAD for an earlier bedtime and an earlier dog & beardie feeding! Not to mention I am FULLY RECOVERED and back to being on track and orginized with my house chores! Your love and support traveled over 650 miles and I will NEVER forget it!


**Remember** "Never piss off someone who is preparing food for you, where do you think the saying me chinese, me play joke, me put pee-pee in your coke comes from....yup.... a cook or a waiter" B.A. Del Piano 2009

To Much To Tell....

Stay with me.... So much to tell.

First thing is First....

Originally I had gone to ASPEN DENTAL.

My teeth hurt, my jaw hurt, and I was miserable.

I posted here and showed you some photo's of my visit.

I had called APEN DENTAL on a Thursday

telling them of my SEVERE PAIN they told me the first appointment was for the following Wednesday. Instead of going somewhere else, I suffered, and I waited.

ASPEN DENTAL took full mouth xrays of me, and the dentist that day offered me a mouth rinse for $67.00 (which I declined that day) and then proceeded to tell me I needed 8 teeth extracted Antibiotics, and a cleaning plan.

I thought....okay....

The dentist then told me to go to the front desk to get my "assesment".

WELL..... I got a $5,400.00 "plan" that they wanted to start me on.

Meanwhile I was still in AGONY, and I asked them what they were going to do with what I am feeling NOW. They told me that they could scedule me for a 2 tooth extraction that FOLLOWING MONDAY!

Penny and I left in COMPLETE DISBELIEF!

We went home and began going online to research dentists near us.

We found someone. Dr. Joan Laura. When we called the next day, she took us IMMEDIATELY. I had 4 teeth extracted THAT DAY!

Turns out I had 3 ABCESES going on! Not only that, but on the 2 upper teeth that were extracted, Dr. Laura could see my sinus cavity! So, along with the antibiotics SHE gave me, I had to follow instructions not to BEND.

If I bent my head, I could change the pressure, and my sinus cavity could erupt.

The lesson here NEVER GO TO ASPEN DENTAL.

& If you are NEAR the Syracuse area GO TO DR. JOAN LAURA!

Dr. Laura ROCKS!!

I FEEL GREAT NOW!

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On another note I am so proud of my sister!

Patti WON best "WANDA" Face on The People's Court!

There were HUNDREDS in this cometition, yet only 2 finalists

My Sister, and a woman named Velveeta Scott....

CONGRATULATIONS PATTI!

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ANNOUNCEMENT:

I have a NEW website strictly for my music.

pleaqsed visit http://www.barbsmusic.com/

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"When He Leaves"

Mom and Dad came up from North Carolina to help Penny and I during my mouth recovery. Not being able to bend was tough, and I was out of commision for a good 4 days. Always in bed. Penny with her neck problems, couldn't do chores or drive to her Dr's appointments.

So....Mom and Dad helped us a GREAT Deal.

On this trip however, came a sorry so big, a heartache so deep that the hurting won't soon be gone.

Mom and Dad's beloved dog Fritzy passed away.

We made arrangements for Fritzy to be cremated here in Syracuse.

We got to watch the individual cremation yesterday, and it was a very sweet experience. The people were AWESOME and the setting was nice too.

As I write this, Mom and Dad are on their way back home to North Carolina.

I am feeling MUCH better, and things are starting to settle again.

I only hope that Mom and Dad can relax tonight in their own home, and settle in as well.

-Barb**Remember** "Don't let life run you over, go SLOW and take each day as it comes, one day at a time" B.A. Del Piano 2009

Facebook Mania and Bill....

Do you have a facebook? As of 2 weeks ago I didn't know what the hell a facebook was. But now.... I have what I deem "Facebook Mania". This site is a GREAT way to re-connect with old school friends, and DOESN'T COST ANYTHING like classmates charges you!

Not to mention there are tons of things you can do on Facebook. Trivia, causes, activities....send your friend chocolates, or squirt them with a water gun....even throw things at them!

On another note.... Production wrapped up on:

Just click on the photo above, and a window will pop up for you to save or open. Just press "Open" and you can hear the song.

I hope you enjoy it.

**Remember** "If you don't know what a "winkie" is NEVER volunteer to touch one" B.A. Del Piano 2009

YEA No More Caroline But Hee Haw Here I Come

The Good News is that Caroline Kennedy is NOT going to run for the Senator's seat for New York to replace Hillary Clinton! I am THRILLED! I watched 3 different interviews with Caroline Kennedy, and in ALL interviews she HAD NO IDEA WHAT SHE WAS TALKING ABOUT!

When asked in these seperate interviews "What can you offer to the State of New York and the Senator position?" her answer was the same "I have many contacts in Washington". THAT WAS IT! No ideas. Not ONE.

The only thing I noticed about Caroline Kennedy is that she looks similar to Meredith Baxter! (and Baxter looks one heck of a lot better!)

On the flip side....

I went to the dentist today.

My back tooth on the left side has been bothering me horribly

for about 2 weeks. My lower jaw as well.

Here I am thinking, hey, it's a simple consultation they will take xrays,

and tell me my fate....

(Hey, nowadays, you can even sit in that dreaded chair

and watch a flat screened TV!)

As I sat there in the chair entertaining myself with the flat screened
TV and Nitrisoxide.... Nora the Dental Tech came in to tell me my fate!

I have to have 8 teeth pulled, bottom dentures and....

I may have TMJ (Hey Burt Reynolds another thing we have in common!)

and I am looking at fake teeth on the bottom! HEEE HAW here I come!

**Remember** "Never get your toothpaste and your hemorrhoid cream get mixed up" - B.A. Del Piano 2009

She's Baaaaaaaaaaack!!

My Ass & My Face???

Remember that old joke:

"Ya Gotta Match?

and the wise guy would bark back at cha'

"Yeah, Your Face and My Ass!"

Unfortunately.... I got Praaaa-blums! My Hemmeroids aren't Hemmeroids. I have to go to a rectal surgeon. In other words: The Dreaded ASSMAN.

I also "clench" my teeth at night. Right now, my jaw is very painful, and eating isn't easy (now there's a diet!) I have been sleeping A LOT, and my teeth hurt on one side as well. So I think I just covered my face and my ass!

Rememeber: YOU chose to read this blog, and I have NO SHAME.

I put it out there.

If it is happening in my life, for the most part it's on my blog.

So if you are offended by severe ass pain

(don't worry I refrained from photo's!)

Then this blog is NOT for you.

On a completely different note.... I have been putting all my time and energy into a new website. I have Created and Authored this site, and I love watching it grow. I just built this site and already I have followers and fans. I am truly Blessed that it is taking off like it is. The site is dedicated to Bearded Dragon Owners and their AWESOME Dragons. http://www.beardeddragonhaven.com/

Another cool surprise is that I am also in the works of Authoring a book series.

I never in my life thought that I could write a book. I have written a short story, and songs, but never a book. I hope the 1st edition will be available for purchase by March 2009.

WISH ME LUCK!

Remember: Sucess is NOT measured by what you own, or what you wear. True success is measured by HOW MANY you own, and HOW you wear it! B.A. Del Piano

The ONLY MAN I Ever LOVED.

Today I lost the ONLY MAN I ever loved.

That's right. MAN.

On this Earth, there was ONLY one man that I would get "intimate" with.

I had a crush on him when I was a child.

That was when I first saw him....

I fell in love with him in my teens.

Imagining us together in daydreams.

Wondering if I would really go "all the way" with him.

In my Dreams, tenderly, I always did.

As I grew up, I saw him occasionally, admiring him from afar,

and still loving and desiring him.

Knowing even now as an adult, I could NEVER have him.

Tonight I sit with a heavy heart at the news of his passing.

My heart aware that no one lives forever.

And I know I shall NEVER forget him.

**Remember** "No One Lives Forever on this Earth, God Grants us Forever and Ever in Heaven, But until then, he allows us our own Fantasy Islands"

B.A. Del Piano 2009

Photo's

**QUESTION** " If the energizer bunny was arrested, would he be charged with battery?" - B.A. Del Piano 2009